So I should just shut up and don' mention about it even is just a joke.
I've been told that, I over with the making baby things... I should have just get married and have my own...
Well, whether or not is a joke or a warning...
It's pretty upset me.
For a person who lurve kids...
Of course I wish to have one or two of my own...
Ok, maybe being a L is my CHOICE, I can choose to be with a guy, get married, get laid...
And wah la!
I got myself a baby! YEAY!
IF... it's so easy.
L means, a woman who don't have any interest or feelings towards guy...
Is not a trend, or influence by other people...
Is the feelings, and I'm born with it.
Maybe I don't feel secure with male as a companion due to certain reasons...
And I don't think I will either.
Not to say I HATE MEN...
I find gays are good men : )
I do have few guys after me before....
Even I would like to TRY...
Still, the feelings is not there, and what for wasting people time isn't it?
I can get adoption...
Adopt a kid... maybe?
Honestly, I can't fend myself... how can I feed and raise a baby to a kid to a person?
Of course is in my consideration, IF... I choose not to go for sperm banks...
To adopt a child, needs to go thru lots of procedure (not like I'm Angelina Jolie or Madonna)...
And also they look into the financial status (they won't believe if I say, I let the baby eat I rather starve to secure him/her...)
I have lots of debts, don't even have own house...
So, adopting a child... is not now.
I do wonder sometime, if I want to conceive, can I?
Just assume, I got
With my health condition.... can I?
Not to say I have critical illness...
I lack of nutrition, heart not that strong...
I do have the thought most of the time, can I do it?
I can just get a guy (of course a good kind man... if there's one)...
Try to get pregnant by that.... after CONFIRM I am pregnant, I can just dump him...
Meaning, I want baby but not the father....
However, in the end of the day...
Can I carry it?
Seriously, is not a happy topic...
I even did asked my best friend get baby, even my sis, get baby....
Why?
1. So I can play with..
2. COMPLETE YOUR LIFE!!!!
Maybe some people don't see it. Well, just a different perspective.
I can't have kid, so I got myself a dog who I treat him like my son...
Some people don't understand why...
Cos, I do want to have one kid of my own.
See it now?
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