FishIe FiShIe

Yesterday nite after work went to Kelana Jaya...
FISHING!...
Or should I say... being BAIT for the mosquitoes to bite?
Quite long time did not sit around the pond...And.. being quiet...
At the same time...
I AT LAST saw 2 fishes which hit on Master Poh's baits...
Interesting.
It caught me thinking recently...
Ever since I in KL...
Hardly can do anything which I did when I was in Penang...
SPORTS.
Squash.. basketball... least tennis...
Maybe cause I'm lazy and hated being JAM on da road...
Excuses..Dance routine?
Left since Form 5.Man...I
'll stick with fishing then...
Hah...
My red talapia....
Hunger me whole nite!

*adapted from my friendster... lazy to think all over again! :o*

07.07.07

Wish that...
I have RM100,000 to settle my stuffs and may get back to study all over again on Advertising Design, and may also restart my life once again...

Wish that...
I able to tone down my FAT at my armpits and flatten up my tummy...

Wish that...
I will start to have a career which I luv and die for rather than hopping like a rabbit...

Wish that...
Everyone I know will be healthy, wealthy and safely...

Wish that...
All my problem solve...

Wish that...
I could be in Australia after all...

Warm wishes and Happy Birthday to ME...

~A special numbers of date to remember for me... 07.07.07~

...UnsPeaKabLe...

Sometimes, when we comes to talk about relationship...
Either it gets interesting or it'll turn out to be freaking bored...
Our mouth just keep on munching grumbling the same ol'things again...
When will there be a change?

Marriage, relationship... still just puppy luv or whatever STATUS that is...
How fulfill will you get when you in that relationship?
Normally, after losing someone who we truly luv... (who we didn't realized how EFFECTED we were that time) then only we'll start to know, DAMN WE DO LUV THEM.

How or should we JUDGE the mistake or the wrong do we did when we were in the relationship?
Can feelings be compare...?
How may we know whatever we advise to our friends on their relationship... are realistic and not beyond our own guts feelings?

Sometimes... like my grandma luv to say... "Never teach people smack their kids, never tells them break their relationship..."...

Sometimes,
being unspeakable = speechless... in the end.

Patience is Virtue...?

"Patience is Virtue"How many people agree on this saying?
I often heard it from my youngest sista's boyfriend said this sentence.. sometimes irritates me, sometimes... it cools me off.
Yesterday..
Had a fight with one of my Nepalese staff...
Believe it or not, that was the 1st time I ever have a fight with my working people...
To the extend that guy said we got language problem, English speaking different even my Captain went shoot him saying next time will talk to him in American English.
Maybe my English do have problem...
I'm Not English Educated, not highly Educated and yet, I'm civilized.

What's so big shot about if you're back from overseas, from overseas?
You studied well, highEST educated enough...
But.. if you being rude for no reason, how CIVILIZED will you be?
Same time yesterday, had a table of customers were very well- no mannered to all my floor staffs included me as well.
Goodness, they can't even can tell me they want a nut-cracker (knuckle) to crack the crabs...
Just asked me, "why you all don't supply the hand..you know for the crab hand.. how can you all sell crab..." When I heard CRAB, then only I know what they was asking for...
Hilarious!

At the same time...
In a relationship...
If there's a time you sense that you are no more value in it...
*being appreciated, and being USED*...
That relationship can be stop for service...True...
Being patience in relationship is good...
Over doing it...
Explode inner-self.
Let go of yourself when you need to...

Patience is Virtue, being yourself that's the truth.

*adapted from my Friendster*

WiTh tHis rInG

My sister went on her marriage registration yesterday...
Attended by my own family members...
Before that, I asked my mum...
"How long they known each other?"
"Around 10mths...?"

I was surprised...
However...
I got to understand that... time... isn't important...
With trust and understanding... time, tells.
Believe me, only till yesterday I got to know what's my brother-in-law's SURNAME...
I'm hardly back to Penang.. so wouldn't know much in details...

Think about it...
Just realized... I ain't a kid anymore...
I'm going be 24 on 07.07.07...
Nice date, but ain't doing anything special to remember it... Anyone wana sponsor then?

Come to look at it...
All my siblings grown up... move on...
Sooner or later...
Our own family will grow.. "branches"...
Till then...
In my heart...
We are always.. the Fantastic 4... Anthony and Nellie's Kids...

Luv y'all.

Ipod, Claypot...Flower pot?

Today I was on LRT...
Was humming away with my partner's N73 on the way to work...
Just realized... tons of people having their MP3 as well... (I have one too... wonder where did I chuck it!)
Well, as I remembered when I was kid... the only most hip stereo oreo was a simply walkman... later on came along cd-player... THe most I got was just a walkman... and that's good enough.

Still,
Now I see the youngsters nowaday...
Their handphones are far more expensive than those people who work in corporate world!
Wonder their parents too much money not sure how to spend or they too pamper their kids.
Shouldn't they "teach" the kids that for having those luxury need to EARN IT?
Well, there might some people especially the TEENAGERS won't be agree with me but think about that 10-20 years ago, the most famous children clothes was Kiki Lala... now?
Nike la... Puma la... GAP la.. Baby Guess larrr....

Yes, I do aware that fashion do change... they "upgrade"...
Maybe the kids in the 21st century wouldn't like to wear those oldies clothing...
Need I say more about from video game to PSP now?
Where's the exact fun?
Kampung vs Hi-technology City...

Cyborg... wins.

RhYtHemAtiC

Here it goes...
How often can someone update their blogs?
Where they got the ideas on what to boasts?
With what kind of issues should be post?

Sometimes, I just post up if something bothers me...
Either I saw or I read something which I wanted to share...
Or even, I might was in despair.
Still, not much people will bother to care.

Issues of politics,
Not much citizens want the name of their own countries be tarnish,
Talk about garbage,
Your blog don't even worth to be in that page!

Speaking of love,
Either you been cheated or being duped,
Ideas on education,
Not much participations...

Blogs,
U did not right, you get blocked.
U did it right, you might get a job... (wuhoo!)
So just let you thoughts be post!

ANYWAY...
It's good to have you around...
I don't need waste money and get a diary!

HuMaNiTY

To be truth, not much people around the globe accept, well... HOMOSEXUALITY issues...
Either still conservative or naive.
Most people, thinks that the homos deserved whatever treatment they deserved either by public or their ownself.
However, I would like to share a story about a friend of mine here.

Kane was with Carol for about a year plus...
They have their own luving stories...
Till one day, Kane found out that Carol been seeing Jane for about 2 months... (I think...)
However, on Kane 24th birthday, she broke up with Carol.. and still, gave her whatever she can to Carol... the room they been shared, parking space... bed... cupboard... and even help to paid rents on the months Carol can't afford. Everyone think Kane was damn stupid for still treating Carol in such good ways, but to her... is her promised to her that she will take care of her no matter what happened.

Recently Carol said she will be moving out, and she asked for her belongings back...
Kane, without hesitation, packed up everything and leave it for Carol to pick up...
Till this morning around 2am...
Carol came back to take her stuffs...
Which include the cupboard and bed which cos around rm600...
When Kane said she want back the cupboard, Carol said she paid for it...
I do wonder, did she forgot that she was jobless for about half year... if work not even 3mths.. how can she afford to PAY?
Weird?
Calculative I must say, and I do believe...
There will be a good PAY BACK karma in return to her.

WHat I'm trying to share here is..
Eventhough there's homos around... they are not much different than the "straights"
Physically, and most of all... emotionally.
Why need to compare, when our feelings can change and luv the one who we look up to?
I used to think that lesbians will appreciate their own partners as it's hard to get ONE around as not much people acceptance...
But with much cases I saw and heard..

Where is the humanity?
Is it treating someone with whole heart...
Need to be return with broken pieces?
Trust...
As a partner or a friend after...
Broken.

*I wonder how afraid is Carol's current gf... For having such a calculative person sleeping next to her... Won't be sure when will her bed be gone!*

Visit Malaysia 2007?

Recently there's a lot of promotion ads about Visit Malaysia 2007...
There's even, "ads" regarding how not-ready we are to "welcome" that moment.
What do I mean?

Nowaday,
There's complaints... well, shall I said, Everyday?
In the newspaper either from Star or Malay Mail,
Readers they'll complaint about the cabbies, toilets, service and etc etc...
To the extend.. sort of "threatening" about, HOW READY WE ARE FOR VISIT MALAYSIA 2007 and BLA BLA BLA....
Why need to complaint?
Yes, there's some citizen who eventually embarassing our country...
Some, don't even bother.

Anyone can tell me...
Who don't make mistake? Who is perfect?
One black sheep make the whole farm rotten...
But...
Have you ever think...
We could make the country stand strong?

We are Malaysian...
We got our own cultures, own people, own races, own spaces..
One Nation.
If other people can't know to think, we ourselves can make another move.
They selfish, why must we join them by crictisizing?

Stay tuned.
Welcome Visit Malaysia....

*can we Malaysian, get cheaper rate to travel own country??...* here we go again!

STANd by Me

Stan...
When she was a kid, schooling... she been compared with the neighbourhood kids.
It doesn't really bother's her as those kids, are friends to her.
The only people who compares were the parents.
She do admit that she never an academic student. Lazy. But worked on drawings.

Till she went to high school to college, she still being compared.
Self-esteem low.
Self-confidence, not found.
The worst was, she did not finish her college, and of course it will embaressed the family so end up, lies been told to the people who known to her that she graduated. Hypocrites.
She don't see anything good in herself, just she's being happy... poor, but happy.

There's times, when she still in secondary school...
Family was broke enough for not having any meal on the table.
She got a habit that was she likes to hide food some where in the house.
Till that day came by without notice, she can't believe how thankful her mother was when she know there's food.
After being down to KL for college, again...
That incident unexpectactly happened...
She called up her sister, and told her there's the last store of food in the room closet.
Being thankful again.

Still,
She got to attached with her first partner, disaster happened...
The first year she in KL... that's the most hardest emotion breaker ever happened.
Partner and family issues.
Break ups, tears apart.
How alone, and frusfrated...
Only she knows.

Till then...
After changing jobs from one to another...
None were the ones, she's happy with.
1st job... had a freaking Singaporean kiasu man...
2nd job, senior taken advantage...
3rd job... well, sales... she been told that she's not persuasive enough... TRUE.
4th job... not being appreciated by the owner...
5th job... current? Being a newbie with a company which fills with workers who work for over 10years in the company and yet, different races... and rumours can spread till far end... Isn't it too much?

She been told that, it's not that they don't understand her...
Is she don't understand herself.
Till then, do she seem lost?
She do know, everyone go through different spaces, different pictures.
She do see herself, prefer to hide and avoid problems.
People see her that...
She prefer fast moveouvre...
She wants good living.

How will that be possible?
She do know that, everything must be earned.
She needs to climb to reach up... not to be given, for not achieving by herself.
She just doesn't understand.
That achieving things...
Need patience and a strong will.
She haven't reached that level for it yet.

Understandable.
Will earned it.

Dated Valentino...again?

Dated: ...somewhere in april.... 1.5.2004...

It's been a while since the days gone,
Realizing that what had gone wrong,
No matter how much the pain we suffered,
I admit,it's not what we wanted.

I've been busy pushing myself to change,
Till I didn't realized that I've been given a chance,
End up I lost it without a trace,
And doesn't even deserve a second space.
Even though we indeed given up,
More or less hope we could have a friendship to build out,
But sometimes,
I indeed cried out loud,
Hope that this ain't the reality that I will allow.

Ur Heart;broken
Ur freedom;restricted
Ur privacy;offended
Our feelings;unspoken
My Chances;given
MY mistake;unforgiven
No matter what it is,
The time that we been together,
Very much appreciated and treasure,
You've been a very very understanding person to me.

Needed to say more?...
Not.

*adapted from friendster - 1.5.2005*

...Dated Valentino?...

Dated: 20.02.2002
Stan went out with her 1st ex at the age of 19th...that's her 1st relationship with someone same gender as me just different "category"...
At that time she was fat and tomboyish eventhough with long hair tugged at her head... Still, she just went along with her 1st ex, Vin who eventually, jobless at the age of 20...sometimes gamble, and somteimes...well, most of the times... borrow money from friends.
Stan based in KL and Vin was in the Island... they don't really meet each other up, sometimes.. once a month... either one went over to the respective states of theirs.
Even, on Stan's 19th birthday... Vin eventually squad down in front of 200 others lesbians and gave Stan a ring... Proposed? Hardly cos after about 1-2 weeks they've broke up...
They been together for 5months.
WHY?
Stan need to be someone else... she's not.
She's not those "female feminine" type of gal...
Cause wanted to please Vin.. she need to change herself...
At the same time.. Vin told her before that all the calls Stan made to her.. a long distance call... will be paid by her in the end of each months... Never did that happened.
Feeling being misused.. cheated.
After Stan asked for break.. a month later.. she got to know from Vin's close friends that eventually, Vin was seeing someone else when with Stan at the same time...and also been told that Vin did not love Stan as who she is at all.
Weird?
Might not.

Dated: 17.04.2003
After all the frustration.. Stan got to know Cee,a chubby gal with same age as she was...
They just start as friend... later on got hitched up... barely.. guess.. a month?
Later on Cee, moved in with Stan.. and.. things started to went wrong...
Stan got sick... emotionally went down... still tried to take care of Cee whenever possible...
Things started to change after Cee back from her hometown..
Whenever Stan want to get intimate with Cee... Cee started to be violence... maybe she accidently did it.. but it's hurtful.
After being together for one year and four month.. Cee asked for break up...
WHY?
Eventhough there's happiness .... but it's beaten down by most sadness...
Cee told Stan that it tooks her for a year to ask for break up as Stan treated her very well... too well...till she can't ask for break up instantly as Stan was sick at that time too.
Hilarious?
After 3 days, Cee was attached with Hos...who eventually Stan did wonder whether did they had affair beforehand.
Weird?
Oh yes it is!

Dated: ...somewhere in april... 1.5.2004
....this shall be continued....

...Left, Right...

Eventually, the past love need to be gone...
The person who you've love need to be forgotten...
However...
How many people could do that?

Eventhough loyal been given...
How many believe the trust is there?
Even there's joy... will it be a happiness?

Career or partner for life?
Which will be choosen?
Will it be foolish to choose love?
Will it be selfish to choose career then?

Will there be right and wrong over that?
Can, luv be choosen?
Can, luv... be a responsibility instead of priority?
Can, luv... just for relying and not for luving?

*to be continue*