Halloween Day

Is it a myth that for the person who's birthday fall on Halloween Day...
Their close friends hard to date them for a celebration....
Or eventually lots of people date them and yet the others not available to do so?

I guess for all this year...
This year is not a good one for me to pass this day.

However...
Happy Birthday to you no matter where you are, who you celebrate with...
Just with sincerely wanna wish you have a good celebration.

Freedom of Sexuality

I heard from my collegue that a new rule been out...
Which is if see a butch around public, she'll be catch and throw in for counselling...
Is that a right rule to follow?
Is there anymore freedom in Malaysia?

I was quite sad of pity with that kind of person's future...
To be the truth, it's not THEY who want to end in this way or this life...
They've tried to change, tried to be someone who are not themself just to be in a group of straight people...
However, does anyone do really care about their feelings?
What they have in mind?
How much they've been suffered because of being born in this way?

Being a thief... can be counsel...
Being a rapist... can be counsel...
Being a bad temper person... there's a anger management counsel...
But...
Being a person who have the feelings with the same sex... a counsel?
Does it really work?

How can a such rule be authorized?
That's called "Majmuk", "Kebebasan"?

Something new...

Not everyone can be pleased...
The most hard is to please ourself to make ourself happy...
Think again, will they be happy to be someone they are not?

Why need to interfere their way of living, when they did nothing to your life?

You Roars, I listen

No matter what's the decision...

With the luv been given unconditionally...
With all the care and luv pour out sincerely...
Just hope to restart all over again slowly...

Take care of you will be my responsibility...
Sharing your feelings will be in the category...
Luv and care for you with my ability...
To gain you as my priority.

From today onwards...
I will pamper you...
Luv you...
Won't lie to you...
Things which I promise I'll fulfill...
Every words I say will be sincere...
Won't bully you...
Won't scold you...
Will believe you...
Anyone bully you, I'll stood up for you...
I'll accompany you when you happy...
I'll even accompany eventhough you're sad...
Forever will think that you're pretty...
I'll dream of you everytime...
In my heart will only have you.

爱好月圆

I watched a Chinese drama recently :家好月圆:
I'm not the type of person who will watch the soap drama and sit there quietly as well...
To the extend, I watched the ending instead of following the stories...
However...
I catched a line while I was watching that drama...

It was about a mother who's daughter is seeing another guy ,who,at the same time have a girlfriend of 7 years...
The mother asked the guy a question which interest me...pretty much...
"I understand you have a girlfriend and she helped you a lot..However,you still be with your girlfriend, is because the existance of love or is it because you'll afraid of owing her more?"

The sentences really strike me as I got a close to the heart friend "sort of" in the situation...
However, she told me she do love and care for her partner...
At the same time, she told me she owed her partner a lot last time...
Which one supposed to be the reason?
Is there a valid reason to love someone or be with someone for life?

Be in a relationship because of love...
It's the thing which everyone seek...
But to be in a relationship because of "debts",payment of love...
Will the relationship happy?
Or will the person be happy?

Certain situation no outsider can't see or understand...
That's the fact.
But to see the person happy or not, an outsider could sense and see...
However, they got no right to judge or have a say...
In the end of the day the person who in that situation, will find her way.

So what can an outsider do?
Advise?
Counsel?
"Why wanna be so stupid repay your partner in this way?!"
Why should I say more?
No reason for doing that.

Even being a close friend...
No matter what topics we talk about even love...
I would want my friend to have and gain happiness.

Fireworks could catch my smile...
I would like to see the sparks and smile which I long time did not see...
Which could catch my heart.

ManyZer

I received a comment about being a Manager...
Being a top leader, is to let people F**k instead of F**k people...
I do see the fact now...
It might sound like a joke...
But when think about it again, it sounds realistic.

To some people, being manager is to put blame on...
Must have a broad shoulder to bare all the responsibilities...
But how much a person could bare?
How long could a person stand on the blames?

It's quite hard to please people...
But it's harder to please ownself than people.

However, support from friends not often get...
Especially the friend, it's your staff.

Stand By Me

Being in management level...
Most of the people who work...
Would like to be in that level...
As soon as possible too...
But, after being up there...
Is the "thing" that they so eager to have, is the one that they actually wanted?

Having the "power" to do things...
But will you be happy to be incharge?
Any idea how much you need to be recharge after that?
Is not really fun anymoe when you being on top...
Not much people will like you after that...
Why?
You're the head...
The leader...
The decision maker...
How to deal with all the responsibilities then?

Being lecture or screw...
Need to smile...
Being blame and scolded...
Still need to smile...
Is that balance or normal?

How long or what's the limit a person could bare?
Being a management, words which been speech out...
Need to bare the consequences...
All the actions given...
Need to bare responsibilities...
Being strict, not a good idea either...

Giving up pretty soon...

And I've done my best.

For Better Or Worst

To find the ONE you looking for all this while...
How long have you been looking for then?

It's quite a boring topic to talk about...
But this topic been going for ages...
Married and divorced...
Where have the vows went?

Even in the end of the road...
You thought that you've found one...
With much obstacles, running and hiding in the bushes...
Break up and patch back...
Will the things be the same again?
Is the feelings in between both person, remain the same?

Where will the topic goes to?
For better or worst?
For better and he/she get the worst?
Or both suffers together?

Never ending fairytales.

:Departured:

Life really can't be predict, isn't it?
Shouldn't everyone appreciate on what they got, what they have...
Or everytime... lost, then only know how to appreciate?

Attended my aunt's funeral last few days...
Was a emotional moment that I ever been thru...
I did attended funerals before... but never one like this...
I wouldn't say that this is something new...
I wouldn't want to go thru that again...

The last time I saw her healthy...
I couldn't recall...
The last time I saw her on bedridden...
Was on 26th Sept...
Brought her back from hospital, cleaned her up with my sis...
3 days later...
And she's gone.

Really can't predict what will happens in another 1 minutes...
For the last goodbye...
My keychain got stuck at her "bungalow"...
Real scares me...
But really...

"If I did anything wrongful, or say something which offended you, I'm sorry aunty..."

My hearts really went all the way out that day...

God bless.

28.3.46-29.9.08

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And the least I expect was a simple message from someone close...
Eventhough to her, either doesn't want to disturb or doesn't seem a point...
It would be a relief that have a moral support...
Really dissapointed...
Is it that hard, to give a support to someone when they needs it?

I hardly could continue. Things could change, something never will.
This is why, I never put any hope for now... Cos dissapointment always fills in.
Good nuff.