Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Movie Marathon

I went for movies yesterday...
Marathon I assumed.
Firstly I watched The Golden Compass.
As there's Nicole Kidman, beautiful lady...
There's also a beautiful witch.. who I don't know the name.
Then came the storyline... sux.

I ain't sure what's the story about...
I was trying to be a civilized educated on literature...
However, I just making myself more uncivilized.
Apart from there...
I was needed to go to the loo... still, I wanted to wait till the ending...
THat thought, lasted for 5minutes.
I did not know that, the scene.. was THE END.

My partner told me that the ending is a "hanging" ending...
Still, I wanted to watch it.
However, I no regret to watch it either.
There's a scene, the polar bear, gypsy and witches fighting against a troop of "duno who"...
That's a beautiful fight.(Better than BEOWULF.. god, what's that all about?)

Next..
I watched ENCHANTED.
Well, it's those Happily Ever AFter thingie... when we used to watch during our kids time...
Still.. till now, whether cartoon or reality...
It's owiyz a happy ending in the movies.

So..
Is there really... a happy ending?
Happily Ever After?

Best scene...
Pip, the chipmunk.. doing charade with the Prince Edward.
Goodie ol'munk!

It's great for a good laughter.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Glory Glory

If mentioning about politics...
It ain't my cup of tea nor my taste for sugar...

However...
Nowaday... it's not doing good with my surroundings.
Even though we live under the same old roof for years...
Multi racials...
There's still something a miss in between us.

There will always claims that being treated unfairly...
Claims... there's only priorities to only that people...
How true is that?

Why for over so many decades....
This thing started, yet again?
Is it hard to live in harmony?
Is it this people jealous that other countries having wars, and we here don't?

What's the purpose for doing so, when our children were supposed to live harmony with their brothers and sisters?
Ain't we a family?

Stop.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Saving for Rainy Day

How much will you eventually know that is enough for you to survive?
Will you willing to share your money with someone else then?

How would you know, that your money not being cheated?
Pros and cons.

Trust the one you want to share with.

To be continue.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Advantage Term Life

Everybody needs an insurance coverage.
However, there's few plans been offered.
So, which one suits you and your family the best of all?

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So which one is for you?
The two most basic forms of life insurance are term and whole.
With term, your policy will expire after a specific amount of time has passed – whether you have died or not. If you do pass away during the time of your coverage, your beneficiary will receive the predetermined death benefit that the policy is set up to pay out. Unlike whole coverage, the term policy does not have a cash value.

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Monday, December 3, 2007

This is how it will goes

I'm still learning on somehting new about blogs...
And I hope there's oppourtunities given to me... to earn some cash with it.

Still trying to convience.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Labour's Law or Company's Law

How much will a employee know about the basic of labour's law?
Example like...
How many days of their annual leave?
How many minimun hours should they complete?
How many MCs they could take a month?
Could they claim back hours if they work more than 8hours a day, without claiming OTs?

When I worked in my previous companies...
I got 12 days annual leave (for employee who work more than a year - 2 years) .. and I got it soon after I being confirm staff to the company...
Even my last job, the HR "motivate" us by if we did not apply annual leave on that month, we get "extra" a day of annual leave!...
I kinda like that, cos how often can OPERATION staffs get long holiday even, we work more than 8 hours.

For my current company...
I got 8 days annual leave...
I asked my GM before, doesn't it against labour law for that?
He asked me to check with the LAW.. as the company won't do anything to against it...
How true is that?

I do understand that work in OPERATION hours...
Will be more than 8 hours a day...
I even work 12-13 hours a day...
Since management level can't claim OT, shouldn't we have the right to least get off extra 2 days instead of one?

Is the 10 Gazetted Holidays... really 10 days only?
When it comes to OPERATION jobs...
As employee...
Is it that we just follow whatever law that the company set?
Or do they eventually follow the Labour's Law?
How can we know that?

...even after I confirm, if I wanna apply for annual leave...Have to "purata" how many months I work devide with days, months, years... bla bla... only can apply.....Only I reach ONE YEAR... then only I can SEE the balance leave...........weird.

Back to Office job.. maybe?

Friday, October 12, 2007

Baby Junior

Baby Junior
Waiting Day...
I was there on the 9th to visit my friend.. but bad nuff..
Not allowed to enter as it's Labour Ward...
Pity the husband as well, as he only manage to pikabu from outside...
We eventually was hoping that "mama" would come out a while before we leave...
Lucky us... she did...
I did not seen her since she was 3 months pregnant...
Imagine now she going to give birth...

Everyone was anxious...
So am I... biting my nails and all...
My partner asked me why am I so nervous when IT'S NOT EVEN MY KID...
Well... it's the first time ever my close friend giving birth...
And it's first born child...
Well, I ain't sure why as well...
Just know.. I'm nervous!

We went back home after the visit...
And was wondering when will the bag be burst!
By 12 plus we received the message from her sister in law that her water bag burst...
We were expecting that the baby will pop up to the world anytime soon...
8.30a.m.. we got to know that it' still haven't arrive...
The "opening" just 3cm... LONG WAY TO GO!
By 9plus we asked the husband what's the status..
He said that the doctor will check again at 10am...
Well..Guess the kid doesn't like being "touch"...
Around 10 sth we received a msg...

9.37 here he comes.

I went and visit...
It's such a beautiful boy...
He's mixed of Indian and Sabahan Chinese...
For now... he's fair as a Chinese..
Wonder later how?

Yesterday I went again,
I got to see his eyes...
Very very luvly boy...
I even have him as my wallpaper in my phone....
Yes... I adore him...
But it's not the time for me to have my own... yet!

However... it's nice to have a New Kid on the Block...

9th Oct 2007 7.30a.m
Admitted to the Labour Ward...

12.30p.m
Given injection of imnuse (for fasten the labour)

12.40a.mWater bag burst...6a.m"Opening" 3cm

10.10.07, 9.37amArrival of Baby Junior...
A healthy baby boy weight of 3.4kg...

Congratulations to Mr & Mrs. Nageshwaran (a.k.a) Ms. Jenny Ng...

Saturday, September 29, 2007

FOODS... VS FOODS

Ever since I'm living in KL...
There's only 1 problem for me... FOOD KNOWLEDGE.

Roti canai = roti kosong?

In Penang, as everybody knows... a FOOD HEAVEN.
So least if I dun speak fluent Hokkien nor a word of Mandarin or even know the roads well, least I still know about the FOOD there.
Since I'm in KL, the "names" for the food, quite confusing to me.
Example Lam Mee, in Penang is bihun mee soup with shredded eggs on top,soup..lil'prawns... In KL, their Lam Mee is Penang's well... LOH MEE!
Hokkien Mee (Prawn Mee), some call it Mee Yoke... in Seremban as well.

In Penang, when you order Hokkien Char, it will gives you bihun mee if only you requested for the big fat noodle,you'll get that..
In KL, you order Hokkien CHar.. *pop* you'll get the big fat noodle.
And the style of cooking a little more to "mun yee mee"... too BLACK SAUCE!

ROJAK!
That's the 1st shocked I got...KL's rojak turns out to be pasembor!
IF it's "rojak buah" then you know what you having...FRUITS!
In Penang, Pasembor is mamak food... included with fried tofu, fried duno what else fill with gravy... (yummy!)
If you want Rojak, you'll get Rojak.. fruits of course.. WITHOUT SPECIFY IT.

Speak of Laksa...
In Penang you want laksa, you'll get assam laksa without question...
Only certain places in Penang, you'll get laksa lemak... (never like that!)
Curry Mee.. is curry mee... (my mum luvs it!)
It's already tragic that in KL they called it Curry Laksa...
However... I nearly fainted that day when I was in Seremban...
I was craving for LAKSA for few days...
And I was visiting my lil'sis in Seremban...
And of course seeing "LAKSA" at a stall.. without hesitate... I went order a bowl...
It came out to be curry mee... very very oily too!!!!
My friends were wondering how come I'll order LAKSA...when they know I don't take curry...
"HOW I KNOW IS CURRY MEE LAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!???"

Lucky enough.. bihun, mee, rice still the same name in the WHOLE WORLD!

And of course... if I want Nasi Tomato...in Penang, I don't need to wait till Ramadhan.. every Thursday, Pasar Malam, here I come!

Food... still, it's filling!

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Hard to be understood? Or Stuborn?

"She's angry cos you asked another friend of yours along"...
That's the first ever sentence I ever heard...well, as long as I've lived.

I do wonder, is it wrong to ask another friend of mine to join for a dinner last few nites.
The people who asked me went out FIRST, were pretty upset that I asked another friend who they DON'T KNOW, along.
I DISRESPECT.
Yes, I've might.

To me, it's just dinner and at the same time I do not have 24hrs all day long to give around friends.
Why can't I just ask another friend along, when she also working at that area...? Don't you think it'll be a lil awkward that YOUR FRIEND was messaging you and IF you bump into her... what should you say or do then?
To me it's hospitality... to other point of view, disrespect.

I told my partner about it. (That's rare!)
She did said that can't blame your ex said that sentences...
She said, not all people can be "used" to other people's thinking and characther.
You might don't get that person ideas, she might don't get what's your thought either.
I do agree though.

My partner was upset when I dish some dishes to my ex when she came over dinner...
To my partner she sees that well I STILL CARE TO MY EX.
TO ME, it's just hospitality.
I should say, maybe my gestures or thinking... not suitable for anyone?

Friends?
Why when I went back to my hometown for a visit... I don't heard that my best friend or another friend groan to me that "She's upset you bring another friend along!!"....
What does FRIEND eventually meant than?
Not for share? Why exist then?

No one ask me to please anybody, but I want to...
Nothing.. gain.
If I explain or speak up... I'll be nag about being stuborn.. or I don't get the pix...
Sometimes...
Don't try to be wise, when you don't even think twice.

Seriously it's hurt.

This is me.

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

One Last Chance

How many chances can be given?
How many loses should a person face?
How many wins shall the person achieved?

Giving all in a relationship... wanted it to be FOREVER...
Eventually, it'll sometimes make someone forgot there's other things to be achieve.
Career?
Familia?

Even sometimes, when we thought that we could last till the end of time...
Something will comes in between...
Yes, we won't predict the future whether could we back together as one...
Sometimes...
Future, it's in our hands.

If No, will be No.
If it's Yes, there's changes need to be make.
Chance will be given.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

DeViL sIde

How much will someone believe words from fortune tellers?
Some they believe till betrayed ownself and families...
How true is the "counts"?

Career?
Love?
Future?
Will it be realistic about it?
Shouldn't future... lead by us all the way?

Should the Date of Birth and the Time we born...
Determined our future?
How much can we believe...
How far should we step ahead then?

Sometimes...
It's not GOOD to know so much about own future...
Yet..
It's not that BAD at all to just... "concern"...

Believe or not...
All depends on ownself...
As long as...
Heart don't feel hurt by it.

Speaking of relationship....
Who will know when will the relationship ends?
Except...
The one who wants that to happen.

Passed the DATE which supposed to break up?
How sure is that?
2009? That's long way to go...
Whether will get back together or not...
That's also need to depends both side...

If ONE says NO...
It will never be a yes.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Wasted... and yet, Hopeless

Miss...
Thinking of You...
Dream...
Holding You...
Togetherness...
Not With You

Never let someone who hurt you once...
Hurt You Twice.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

7th Month Festival

A friend of mine who I met up recently said that...
I'm quite lazy nowaday as I did not update any of blogs!
"WORST THAN NEWSPAPER"
Yeah... I was dried up for what to post up....

Speaking of newspaper...
Recently, there's a lot of accidents.
Another friend of mine said that during Chinese 7th Month (Ghost Festival)...
There will be extremely lots of "people died"...
I thought was just a myth...

But I got to realized that...
Well.. there were a lot of news recently about murdering, accidents... butchering...
Yes, it's in the newspaper everyday.. "What's the different?"...
Different is.. each column...
The news of people died are fill in each column...
After read the main page...
There will be another story at page 2 or maybe 3....

Horrible.

To all, please becareful wherever you go....

To you my friend... please drive carefully when out of town... Thank you for your understanding of my concern!

Saturday, August 4, 2007

This morning while I was on Monorail...
There's 5 teenagers I can't get my eyes off from...
Well, 3 gals and 2 guys...
Not saying they are too pretty nor handsome...
Is their attires I was hooked with.
Well, maybe I'm not really into fashion...
I won't say I dress well either...
However... fashion are meant to be judge...
Malaysian teenagers (especially gals) got hooked with either Japanese or Taiwanese fashion sense...
With long stocking... pantyhose...
(If no idea, try browse around thru internet)

Well...
As I could recall, I only will saw this type of fashion...
Pretty Woman? Or maybe... movies with consist of.. hookers?
Not to say I don't respect on their dressing...
But least... not to say you go SG WANG you got to dress in that way...
And of course you won't see ladies wearing night gown strolling at the park isn't it?

Attires need to be wear on certain occasions and locations...
THose Japanese or Taiwanese wearing...
well, can't judgee Japanese much cos that's their style...
Taiwanese got influence by them and also from the actors and actresses...
I
t's quite hard to fill in this blog...
Cos I just know is tragic...
And I don't have fashion sense either.

*adapted from my friendster*

Monday, July 30, 2007

Savvy Of Mine

She'll be 2 on Sept...
Not even half month old, her gear pad having squeeky sound...
Barely a year... going bumper, turning... squeeky sound... been heard...
Barely 1 and half years old, she need to changed her battery...
Requested to change da absober, bearing, drive shaft... no different..
Now, stepping on clutch.. da engine having echo.. going 5th gear.. woahh..I'm as if a pilot..
AIRPLANE SOUND!

How am I should be happy for owning a car?
It's very much dissapointment to me...
My 1st car...
Ain't built tough, da owner should be... to stand tough to pay for the expenses for service!!!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Front Page

The news are back recently...
Regarding about the couple who murdered the lil 3 year old kid...

Now...
The main point here is...
What's the truth?... What's the real story behind the tragic?
Who should be blame?

Then again...
Yesterday.. another paper...
Stated, it was the 4th case regarding abducting children...

Again and again....
WHere should the children hide now?
Even.. own parents can't be trusted... trust who now?

Very unpredictable on human right now... well, most of the times.
Ain't like to be in the front page?
Stay out from the limelight mate!

Monday, July 23, 2007

BloGgIng BuGgEr

I getting to wonder...
Did anyone.. read my blogs?
Well, not to say that I have or done any great Blogs...
Or even typed in anything special...
Just wonder...
Anyone ever, shared?

If anyone ever did read or browse thru my blogs...
I do hope someone just give a comment...
Whether good or bad...
Least, I know someone did read something from all my craps...

Been tired lately...
Not to say I'm busy doing any big busniess...
Doc just said I over strain...
Weird...
Till she asked me when was the last time...
I EVER REALLY RESTED??

I wonder the same thing as well...
Have off day, taken leave back to Penang...
Still...
...Peace of my mind?
...April, Phuket.

~Ohmm...~

Friday, July 20, 2007

Meet The Parents

Read yesterday paper...
About the lil'gal from Penang...
Well, as I said if Penang allow the people throw stone to the couple...
I guess, they been dead by now.

What catch my eyes was.. there's another case.
A mother killed her son... I guess.. 3 years old?
Reason, I ain't that sure...
Was quite annoyed to read that kinda story agian.

What's going on with the parents nowaday?
First I was quite annoyed on the children NOW, as they are very much "NEW CENTURY"...
And now, PARENTS?
They got no other hobbies?
Killing kids?

Were they too depress?
Can't think straight?
Or...
The kids annoyed them too much and suffocate them?
Why let them come to this world then?

Let's see...
How many more to go....

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Shoulda'woulda'coulda

Should everything which disturb, depress, bring us down.. been keep inside of us?
Would it bring any benefits if we tell somebody about our frustration?
Could it be better if we just runaway from all the stress?

Shouldn't we be clear on what we want?
Wouldn't it be better if there's a pillar to lean on?
Couldn't just things be STRAIGHT for a minute?!

Should, would, could.... I be alone for a sec?

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Come Out Come Wherever You Are...

Have you guys read the papers lately?
Don't be surprise if there's a news about a kid being lost or kidnap... again.
It's horrified if those kids been found... dead.
If being found alive, it's a bless.

When I was younger, I got to know that a boy whose name... I think something with Tong.. went missing...
Till now, no news about that boy... and I guess if he's still around... he'll be around my age....
I won't remember him if not because of the latest news about a malay boy, Yin, being reported missing while shopping with his father...
However, he was saved by a Myanmar couple... still, it was a havoc cause most people thought they kidnap him for the rewards...
How true is that? Even I myself felt that, it should be a bless that the kid was safe and sound... Why want to create chaos to the couple??
Maybe I don't understand the procedure to turn the kid in then?

After that, most recent...
Was a gal waiting her mother to pick her up from the nursery...
And without hesitation, the child followed a stranger... ending being sexual assaulted..
With... a BRINJAL?
Few days later, another gal being kidnap away just in front of her dad's shop...
After 48hours, being released, but not much story being told...
Suspected, same MAN do the dirty jobs.
Seriously.. is that Man.. SICK?

Most tragic just few days ago...
I was back to Penang for holiday...
While was going for dinner, I saw a flyer stick on the wall...
"Missing"...
Most of the words, were in Chinese... (I don't read Chinese words, well)..
However, may get the brief idea that the gal was missing...
I didn't get noted on it...

Till next day..
Sunday Star...
Reported the missing gal...
The details on how she went missing...
She's just like 2-3years old?
The mum went pay parking ticket and after 10mins she got back to her car...
Found the lil'gal went missing...
On Monday paper, reported a close relative and her boyfriend being captured...
WHY?
Found the charted body of a gal...
Clothes of the gal near the river...
Bones being hidden near cemetery...
Pathetic minds.

I did not catch Tuesday paper...
But got to read today's...
And with the big headline of "DISOWNED"...
I was surprised to know that.. THE MUM involved with the murder...
The parents of the MUM disowned their own daughter causing the death of their grandchild...
The ex-husband (coming to be) won't forgive her if she really connected to the murder...
I was not really understand much of the stories... till my mum told me some of the "gossips"...

It seems that the BOYFRIEND took care the gal when the MUM went to work...
He accidently drown her while giving her a bath...
So the "clean up the mess" they place her into a big alumminium can and burn her in there...
After throw her remains at the stated places...
The gal might been dead on 5th July cause the granny want to take care of her that day but the MUM said was not convenient as is far from their place to the grandma's...
Even, if it's really the boyfriend did the WORK...the MUM also commited a crime for keeping silence... WAS her CHILD for godsake!

I told my mum, if really they did it...
Should have the whole Penang Island people throw stones at them...
So sad for this tragic...
As reported the child got lost while her mum at Bayan Baru's Market....
Is near my housing area....
SHOCKED!

Surprised to know...
I turned to another page of the paper...
There's a report saying a child been found back and return to his family...
Detained a 18 years old teenager...
How funny is that...?
To me, I may get a picture that the boy followed ANOTHER FAMILY HOME?!
Just because the kid was playing with that family's children....?

Who should be blame for losing their own kids?
Can't blame that the kids they have... HYPERACTIVE..
If they expect that their own child not to be hyperactive...
They worried something wrong with their kids... end up sending their child to special school...
Funny parents.

Please, to all parents...
Eventhough Malaysia have lots of Megasales, discount sales...
Don't bring your kids along if you don't intend to pay attention at them.
Don't blame if one day the child did not come back...
They just love HIDE AND SEEK too much.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

::Is that...Me?::

A friend of mine told me that I've changed.
In my heart, I was thinking... huh, now realized?
To my surprised, she said that I not like last time...!
Lack of:
Enthusiastics...
Happy...
Persistance...


Even said that... (In Chinese there's a saying...)
If the sky drop down,
treat it as a blanket and cover yourself...

To me...
If the sky drop down...
If die.. die.. die then...
I couldn't be bothered.


It caught me thinking...
Guess it's true...
I'm getting to be in WATEVER-attitude very much much badly...
I do have the determination of get things right...
However...
I falling into... Lazy disease as well...

Whether is the environment or the people's influence...
Can't really figure out.
Just know that...
Need to get back up.

With such of positive attitudes as my friend describe...
Is that me at the first place?

Will figure.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Peace Of Mind

Just to go home for celebration...
Without any hesitation...
Still...
Why just because transportation...
Need to make me into frustration?

I rather stay alone...
Whether is outside or home...
I'll might feel the cold...
Least...
I will get a by on my own.

Making me tired...
Not into any mood for making me head wired!

Saturday, June 30, 2007

FishIe FiShIe

Yesterday nite after work went to Kelana Jaya...
FISHING!...
Or should I say... being BAIT for the mosquitoes to bite?
Quite long time did not sit around the pond...And.. being quiet...
At the same time...
I AT LAST saw 2 fishes which hit on Master Poh's baits...
Interesting.
It caught me thinking recently...
Ever since I in KL...
Hardly can do anything which I did when I was in Penang...
SPORTS.
Squash.. basketball... least tennis...
Maybe cause I'm lazy and hated being JAM on da road...
Excuses..Dance routine?
Left since Form 5.Man...I
'll stick with fishing then...
Hah...
My red talapia....
Hunger me whole nite!

*adapted from my friendster... lazy to think all over again! :o*

Thursday, June 28, 2007

07.07.07

Wish that...
I have RM100,000 to settle my stuffs and may get back to study all over again on Advertising Design, and may also restart my life once again...

Wish that...
I able to tone down my FAT at my armpits and flatten up my tummy...

Wish that...
I will start to have a career which I luv and die for rather than hopping like a rabbit...

Wish that...
Everyone I know will be healthy, wealthy and safely...

Wish that...
All my problem solve...

Wish that...
I could be in Australia after all...

Warm wishes and Happy Birthday to ME...

~A special numbers of date to remember for me... 07.07.07~

Monday, June 25, 2007

...UnsPeaKabLe...

Sometimes, when we comes to talk about relationship...
Either it gets interesting or it'll turn out to be freaking bored...
Our mouth just keep on munching grumbling the same ol'things again...
When will there be a change?

Marriage, relationship... still just puppy luv or whatever STATUS that is...
How fulfill will you get when you in that relationship?
Normally, after losing someone who we truly luv... (who we didn't realized how EFFECTED we were that time) then only we'll start to know, DAMN WE DO LUV THEM.

How or should we JUDGE the mistake or the wrong do we did when we were in the relationship?
Can feelings be compare...?
How may we know whatever we advise to our friends on their relationship... are realistic and not beyond our own guts feelings?

Sometimes... like my grandma luv to say... "Never teach people smack their kids, never tells them break their relationship..."...

Sometimes,
being unspeakable = speechless... in the end.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Patience is Virtue...?

"Patience is Virtue"How many people agree on this saying?
I often heard it from my youngest sista's boyfriend said this sentence.. sometimes irritates me, sometimes... it cools me off.
Yesterday..
Had a fight with one of my Nepalese staff...
Believe it or not, that was the 1st time I ever have a fight with my working people...
To the extend that guy said we got language problem, English speaking different even my Captain went shoot him saying next time will talk to him in American English.
Maybe my English do have problem...
I'm Not English Educated, not highly Educated and yet, I'm civilized.

What's so big shot about if you're back from overseas, from overseas?
You studied well, highEST educated enough...
But.. if you being rude for no reason, how CIVILIZED will you be?
Same time yesterday, had a table of customers were very well- no mannered to all my floor staffs included me as well.
Goodness, they can't even can tell me they want a nut-cracker (knuckle) to crack the crabs...
Just asked me, "why you all don't supply the hand..you know for the crab hand.. how can you all sell crab..." When I heard CRAB, then only I know what they was asking for...
Hilarious!

At the same time...
In a relationship...
If there's a time you sense that you are no more value in it...
*being appreciated, and being USED*...
That relationship can be stop for service...True...
Being patience in relationship is good...
Over doing it...
Explode inner-self.
Let go of yourself when you need to...

Patience is Virtue, being yourself that's the truth.

*adapted from my Friendster*

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

WiTh tHis rInG

My sister went on her marriage registration yesterday...
Attended by my own family members...
Before that, I asked my mum...
"How long they known each other?"
"Around 10mths...?"

I was surprised...
However...
I got to understand that... time... isn't important...
With trust and understanding... time, tells.
Believe me, only till yesterday I got to know what's my brother-in-law's SURNAME...
I'm hardly back to Penang.. so wouldn't know much in details...

Think about it...
Just realized... I ain't a kid anymore...
I'm going be 24 on 07.07.07...
Nice date, but ain't doing anything special to remember it... Anyone wana sponsor then?

Come to look at it...
All my siblings grown up... move on...
Sooner or later...
Our own family will grow.. "branches"...
Till then...
In my heart...
We are always.. the Fantastic 4... Anthony and Nellie's Kids...

Luv y'all.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Ipod, Claypot...Flower pot?

Today I was on LRT...
Was humming away with my partner's N73 on the way to work...
Just realized... tons of people having their MP3 as well... (I have one too... wonder where did I chuck it!)
Well, as I remembered when I was kid... the only most hip stereo oreo was a simply walkman... later on came along cd-player... THe most I got was just a walkman... and that's good enough.

Still,
Now I see the youngsters nowaday...
Their handphones are far more expensive than those people who work in corporate world!
Wonder their parents too much money not sure how to spend or they too pamper their kids.
Shouldn't they "teach" the kids that for having those luxury need to EARN IT?
Well, there might some people especially the TEENAGERS won't be agree with me but think about that 10-20 years ago, the most famous children clothes was Kiki Lala... now?
Nike la... Puma la... GAP la.. Baby Guess larrr....

Yes, I do aware that fashion do change... they "upgrade"...
Maybe the kids in the 21st century wouldn't like to wear those oldies clothing...
Need I say more about from video game to PSP now?
Where's the exact fun?
Kampung vs Hi-technology City...

Cyborg... wins.

Friday, June 15, 2007

RhYtHemAtiC

Here it goes...
How often can someone update their blogs?
Where they got the ideas on what to boasts?
With what kind of issues should be post?

Sometimes, I just post up if something bothers me...
Either I saw or I read something which I wanted to share...
Or even, I might was in despair.
Still, not much people will bother to care.

Issues of politics,
Not much citizens want the name of their own countries be tarnish,
Talk about garbage,
Your blog don't even worth to be in that page!

Speaking of love,
Either you been cheated or being duped,
Ideas on education,
Not much participations...

Blogs,
U did not right, you get blocked.
U did it right, you might get a job... (wuhoo!)
So just let you thoughts be post!

ANYWAY...
It's good to have you around...
I don't need waste money and get a diary!

HuMaNiTY

To be truth, not much people around the globe accept, well... HOMOSEXUALITY issues...
Either still conservative or naive.
Most people, thinks that the homos deserved whatever treatment they deserved either by public or their ownself.
However, I would like to share a story about a friend of mine here.

Kane was with Carol for about a year plus...
They have their own luving stories...
Till one day, Kane found out that Carol been seeing Jane for about 2 months... (I think...)
However, on Kane 24th birthday, she broke up with Carol.. and still, gave her whatever she can to Carol... the room they been shared, parking space... bed... cupboard... and even help to paid rents on the months Carol can't afford. Everyone think Kane was damn stupid for still treating Carol in such good ways, but to her... is her promised to her that she will take care of her no matter what happened.

Recently Carol said she will be moving out, and she asked for her belongings back...
Kane, without hesitation, packed up everything and leave it for Carol to pick up...
Till this morning around 2am...
Carol came back to take her stuffs...
Which include the cupboard and bed which cos around rm600...
When Kane said she want back the cupboard, Carol said she paid for it...
I do wonder, did she forgot that she was jobless for about half year... if work not even 3mths.. how can she afford to PAY?
Weird?
Calculative I must say, and I do believe...
There will be a good PAY BACK karma in return to her.

WHat I'm trying to share here is..
Eventhough there's homos around... they are not much different than the "straights"
Physically, and most of all... emotionally.
Why need to compare, when our feelings can change and luv the one who we look up to?
I used to think that lesbians will appreciate their own partners as it's hard to get ONE around as not much people acceptance...
But with much cases I saw and heard..

Where is the humanity?
Is it treating someone with whole heart...
Need to be return with broken pieces?
Trust...
As a partner or a friend after...
Broken.

*I wonder how afraid is Carol's current gf... For having such a calculative person sleeping next to her... Won't be sure when will her bed be gone!*

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Visit Malaysia 2007?

Recently there's a lot of promotion ads about Visit Malaysia 2007...
There's even, "ads" regarding how not-ready we are to "welcome" that moment.
What do I mean?

Nowaday,
There's complaints... well, shall I said, Everyday?
In the newspaper either from Star or Malay Mail,
Readers they'll complaint about the cabbies, toilets, service and etc etc...
To the extend.. sort of "threatening" about, HOW READY WE ARE FOR VISIT MALAYSIA 2007 and BLA BLA BLA....
Why need to complaint?
Yes, there's some citizen who eventually embarassing our country...
Some, don't even bother.

Anyone can tell me...
Who don't make mistake? Who is perfect?
One black sheep make the whole farm rotten...
But...
Have you ever think...
We could make the country stand strong?

We are Malaysian...
We got our own cultures, own people, own races, own spaces..
One Nation.
If other people can't know to think, we ourselves can make another move.
They selfish, why must we join them by crictisizing?

Stay tuned.
Welcome Visit Malaysia....

*can we Malaysian, get cheaper rate to travel own country??...* here we go again!

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

STANd by Me

Stan...
When she was a kid, schooling... she been compared with the neighbourhood kids.
It doesn't really bother's her as those kids, are friends to her.
The only people who compares were the parents.
She do admit that she never an academic student. Lazy. But worked on drawings.

Till she went to high school to college, she still being compared.
Self-esteem low.
Self-confidence, not found.
The worst was, she did not finish her college, and of course it will embaressed the family so end up, lies been told to the people who known to her that she graduated. Hypocrites.
She don't see anything good in herself, just she's being happy... poor, but happy.

There's times, when she still in secondary school...
Family was broke enough for not having any meal on the table.
She got a habit that was she likes to hide food some where in the house.
Till that day came by without notice, she can't believe how thankful her mother was when she know there's food.
After being down to KL for college, again...
That incident unexpectactly happened...
She called up her sister, and told her there's the last store of food in the room closet.
Being thankful again.

Still,
She got to attached with her first partner, disaster happened...
The first year she in KL... that's the most hardest emotion breaker ever happened.
Partner and family issues.
Break ups, tears apart.
How alone, and frusfrated...
Only she knows.

Till then...
After changing jobs from one to another...
None were the ones, she's happy with.
1st job... had a freaking Singaporean kiasu man...
2nd job, senior taken advantage...
3rd job... well, sales... she been told that she's not persuasive enough... TRUE.
4th job... not being appreciated by the owner...
5th job... current? Being a newbie with a company which fills with workers who work for over 10years in the company and yet, different races... and rumours can spread till far end... Isn't it too much?

She been told that, it's not that they don't understand her...
Is she don't understand herself.
Till then, do she seem lost?
She do know, everyone go through different spaces, different pictures.
She do see herself, prefer to hide and avoid problems.
People see her that...
She prefer fast moveouvre...
She wants good living.

How will that be possible?
She do know that, everything must be earned.
She needs to climb to reach up... not to be given, for not achieving by herself.
She just doesn't understand.
That achieving things...
Need patience and a strong will.
She haven't reached that level for it yet.

Understandable.
Will earned it.

Dated Valentino...again?

Dated: ...somewhere in april.... 1.5.2004...

It's been a while since the days gone,
Realizing that what had gone wrong,
No matter how much the pain we suffered,
I admit,it's not what we wanted.

I've been busy pushing myself to change,
Till I didn't realized that I've been given a chance,
End up I lost it without a trace,
And doesn't even deserve a second space.
Even though we indeed given up,
More or less hope we could have a friendship to build out,
But sometimes,
I indeed cried out loud,
Hope that this ain't the reality that I will allow.

Ur Heart;broken
Ur freedom;restricted
Ur privacy;offended
Our feelings;unspoken
My Chances;given
MY mistake;unforgiven
No matter what it is,
The time that we been together,
Very much appreciated and treasure,
You've been a very very understanding person to me.

Needed to say more?...
Not.


*adapted from friendster - 1.5.2005*

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

...Dated Valentino?...

Dated: 20.02.2002
Stan went out with her 1st ex at the age of 19th...that's her 1st relationship with someone same gender as me just different "category"...
At that time she was fat and tomboyish eventhough with long hair tugged at her head... Still, she just went along with her 1st ex, Vin who eventually, jobless at the age of 20...sometimes gamble, and somteimes...well, most of the times... borrow money from friends.
Stan based in KL and Vin was in the Island... they don't really meet each other up, sometimes.. once a month... either one went over to the respective states of theirs.
Even, on Stan's 19th birthday... Vin eventually squad down in front of 200 others lesbians and gave Stan a ring... Proposed? Hardly cos after about 1-2 weeks they've broke up...
They been together for 5months.
WHY?
Stan need to be someone else... she's not.
She's not those "female feminine" type of gal...
Cause wanted to please Vin.. she need to change herself...
At the same time.. Vin told her before that all the calls Stan made to her.. a long distance call... will be paid by her in the end of each months... Never did that happened.
Feeling being misused.. cheated.
After Stan asked for break.. a month later.. she got to know from Vin's close friends that eventually, Vin was seeing someone else when with Stan at the same time...and also been told that Vin did not love Stan as who she is at all.
Weird?
Might not.

Dated: 17.04.2003
After all the frustration.. Stan got to know Cee,a chubby gal with same age as she was...
They just start as friend... later on got hitched up... barely.. guess.. a month?
Later on Cee, moved in with Stan.. and.. things started to went wrong...
Stan got sick... emotionally went down... still tried to take care of Cee whenever possible...
Things started to change after Cee back from her hometown..
Whenever Stan want to get intimate with Cee... Cee started to be violence... maybe she accidently did it.. but it's hurtful.
After being together for one year and four month.. Cee asked for break up...
WHY?
Eventhough there's happiness .... but it's beaten down by most sadness...
Cee told Stan that it tooks her for a year to ask for break up as Stan treated her very well... too well...till she can't ask for break up instantly as Stan was sick at that time too.
Hilarious?
After 3 days, Cee was attached with Hos...who eventually Stan did wonder whether did they had affair beforehand.
Weird?
Oh yes it is!

Dated: ...somewhere in april... 1.5.2004
....this shall be continued....

Sunday, June 3, 2007

...Left, Right...

Eventually, the past love need to be gone...
The person who you've love need to be forgotten...
However...
How many people could do that?

Eventhough loyal been given...
How many believe the trust is there?
Even there's joy... will it be a happiness?

Career or partner for life?
Which will be choosen?
Will it be foolish to choose love?
Will it be selfish to choose career then?

Will there be right and wrong over that?
Can, luv be choosen?
Can, luv... be a responsibility instead of priority?
Can, luv... just for relying and not for luving?

*to be continue*

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

My Own Thought

I have my thoughts...
I've been thru a lot...
In the past was just a task...
To test my luv and lust...
Still till now...
I'm a bit lost.

Feelings might haven't been fade...
Still, that's the end of our faith...
Without the fate,
We shall just let it close case.

Friends,
Still can be built...
Sisterhood...
It shall be good.

Craps?
Might be not too.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Great, Greater... Greatness?

How much been given, will it be able taken back?
How may someone know how much they've taken if they did not "count" how much they've given?
Why people need to compare on how MUCH everytime?
Will it eventually give them something BACK?

Can everything be counted?
Be calculated?

I'm not feeling well today...
Later.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

A Second Thought

Some people might have work in their current company for most of their entire life.
Some people would be just job hoping for most of the time...
How would people eventually build a career of their own?

There's been people who work their butt's off for their companies and in the end of the day,
they not being motivated or being recognized by their "beloved" companies.
Wonder...
Are these people... well... DUMB?
Eventually, they are in comfort zone, not much worries same routines... they got used to what they doing and wouldn't want to move around so much...?
Some people... would call them "LOYAL" to the company...
But...
How good the company had treated them instead?

In this world...
The funny and weird human beings...
Do EXISTS.

Monday, May 14, 2007

EXtraordinary

How often will a couple be friends after a break up?
Is it so hard to be one after the disaster?

Yes, it's hard to back as friends when being hurt by your EX..
Whether being cheated or lied...
Wound still be there...
But...
How about the opposites way?
That, you've being hurt and you are forgiving...
Still,
THEY the ones that doesn't make friends?

THEY..
Do EXist...
Either is your EX or your pal's EX...
Why such person do this?
Maybe cos they don't see that they were wrong at first?
Or maybe cos... better to CLEAR the line?

Weird?
Go Figure.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

I am WHO I am

How often will someone disclose themself... Who they are?
Or how often will someone share their closet secrets?
In the view of people's eyes... they might like you ...or not?
How should someone share their thoughts with other people if there's discrimination around the globe?
We can't deny that there's only MEN and WOMEN...
Who might in the end, feel safer as being the opposite sex from what they been born as.

Still,
There's those people who will look them in another way around...
In a way... they are filthy, a DEVIL to the world... a convict, who just want to be THEMSELF.
However, have those people who thought they are the ANGELs ever considerate, why the DEVILs they see... were like that?
Have they ever ask them... HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Have they ever really be their FRIENDS?
The people who are ANGELs... are also called, they STRAIGHT people.

For example, the Transvestite... or best known as Ah Kua...or Mak Nyah...or Pondan...or whatever names a person could think of...
I read in the paper not long ago, about the "Girls" not being supported well either by goverment nor public due to their "activities".
Who can blame them for what they've done?
Those Transvestite, been discriminate by people ages ago...
Even me sometimes will get a shock if the "ladies" walked passed me...
Not saying I don't "like" them... some of their "behaviours" not really "polite" in a way of they should act as decent as possible to gain respect from the public...
Some, need to end up standing at the street offering sexual activities, not like they WANT to...
There's not even a job oppourtunities can be given to them...
For those who work in Beauty Centres as promoters... (and I mean the Mak Nyah) is good for you girls... as you look much more prettier and elegant than those REAL women standing next to you.
For the Trans (as short), they are just human being as well...
Just that they prefer and much more happier being another "person" who's hiding in their bodies.
Why must we discriminate them when nothing and no one is perfect?
Think again...
Will it be hurt just to least say HI to them?

Same case to the Gays and Lesbians...
They slightly different from the Trans...
They do not need sex change operations to define who they are...
In their relationship... says another thing.
Gays likes Men... = Man + Man
Lesbians, likes girls.. = Girl + Girl
Why there's such thing happens?
Who knows?
No explanation on this... (for my understanding)
Feelings...
Plays the important parts...
To some religion, is a SIN... a BIG ONE too.
However... wouldn't it be a SIN too if CURSING and DISCRIMINATING them?

Why must there's always arguements about what had happened to the childrens?
Why must there's pin-pointing to one another for not bring up the child properly?
Why must there's blames around?
If you DON'T LIKE THEM, is nothing to LOSE FOR THEM..
Why need to make the fuss?

Have someone ever think of THEIR FEELINGS?
They are just as normal as those STRAIGHT people...
They will FAIL in their RELATIONSHIP too...
Even they found the love of their life... they can't get marry (legally), ever pity them?
NO!
THEY DESERVE IT!!! <-- Doesn't it sound mean?
Straight couples... END IN DIVORCE, FIGHTING IN COURT... and the CROOKED, DON'T!
Who wins then?
Human being very funny sometimes...
They only will think... ------------------ a straight lines is a line... but never see inner part of the lines, it's created by the dots actually.

Why must things be in this way?
Even on road, there's straight... hills, curves, bumpers...
If choose to use straight...ONLY will it ever leads you to your destination?
Everyone have their rights...
Learn of acceptance and forgiving...
Be a friend to "them"... don't care they are Mak Nyah, ah kua ah lian ah beng nor gay or les...
We are friends.

Power of Sisterhood, Brotherhood.
I Salute and Respect to those who accept who we are.

I am...
Who I am.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

New Creation Of Mine

I read in the paper recently about blogging.
Says about senior citezen creating or should I say, "into" blogging as the youngsters?
Eventually, is a good thing for them to express their thoughts thru here...
Not much people intend to listen to old folks nowaday... Isn't it?

I do have blog for myself in Friendster...
Ain't sure why I still wanna make one "outside" from it...
Maybe I would wanna share more of my thoughts?
But...
How sure am I there will be people come in and "check" it out?

Some of own blogs, will make up "famous" some, will turns out to be disastreous...
Some people had been lost their jobs due to their, "remarkable" information about their daily rountines of well, JOBS.

How good will a blog be?
How good will we MAKE IT BE?
As saying it's for sharing our thoughts...
BUt..
How come it'll turn against us?
Funny.
Think about it.